First Day

Noah doesn't start preschool until next Fall, but I really wanted to put him in some kind of class that would prepare him for when that day comes. Our city has a great Recreational Center that offers tons of great classes for kids, so I signed him up for the "Kid Class", which is a class for the 3 1/2 to 5 year olds that meets once a week for 1 1/2 hours. The class has a theme each week...and NO moms allowed! Oh boy...I was thinking that this was going to be harder on me than Noah, and in a way it was. I've been preping Noah by telling him that he was going to go to a fun class and that he was going to play with kids his age, and he was excited about that, but he wasn't excited about the part where I don't stay with him. The poor little guy was so confused, and I don't blame him one bit. Noah and I are tight...we do everything together...really! I feel weird when he's not around, and I'm sure that the same goes for him.

Well, this morning he was excited to go, mainly because I was acting so excited about it {you know...I was just keeping his spirits high}. I went to drop him off and he was a little hesitant to go, but he wasn't crying {thank goodness!} and he finally sat down and gave me a hug goodbye.

Then I left. I couldn't help but stay in the hall for a few minutes and check on him, and once I felt good and knew that he was OK, I left. Just me and Leah. It was weird...really weird. And once I got to the car I started to cry...I wasn't sad, I was just having a moment. I have never left him like that before, and I know that it was good for him to participate in a class like this, but a part of me just broke down. That's normal, right? I'm just realizing that he is growing up and that he doesn't always need me. A part of me thinks that I need him more then the other way around. He's my little buddy...he's my little side kick...he's my little partner every day. And I'm his, and he tells me every day that I'm his buddy and that I'm nice and that I'm his best friend...he makes me feel good like that. He really is the sweetest little guy and I'm going to miss not having him around every day when he actually starts school.

I think that this class, that meets ONCE a week, is a good prep for both Noah AND me. Yes, I know I'm going to be a cry baby on his first real day of school, but that's OK. It really is just so crazy to me how fast these little ones grow up.

I was there early to pick Noah up from his class, and he really did have such a fun time. He told me all about it and how he had made friends. It made me feel so good that he was happy. And he was SO thrilled to show me his little craft that he made...a snowman to hang on our tree. I love this kid...he really is amazing :).